You remember all the “things are about to change” stuff I posted several weeks back? And the “Apollon has a plan” stuff, too? I find it amazing that right after the ritual on New Year’s Eve (which was designed, in part, to help me find my way in the coming months), the major aspects of my life began to shift, so that they took on an entirely new shape. And it is a shape I never would have guessed, or assumed for myself.
Opportunities are falling out of the sky right now. I got a job, doing something that I really like, so far. It’s great, because the financial prospects for my family were starting to get rather depressing. I hope to be able to post something about it maybe in a few weeks, after I’ve had a little more experience.
Also, I’ve really been giving Apollon a lot of devotion lately, in the form of ritual dance. He is so into it, and apparently, so am I. I’ve incorporated my bow into the dance sessions, mainly because my goal to shoot every week hasn’t panned out, and it is quite a challenge to move gracefully, indoors, with a longbow. But, challenges are good for me, and Apollon has handed me a few, lately. But, I strive always to meet them. I strive always to make Apollon proud, so he never regrets saving my life and making me his. And yes, it feels so wonderful to honor the god with my weapon, even if I can’t find a space wherein to shoot.
I’ve also decided that, as a witch, one of my sacred arrows, which are of course dedicated to Apollon, makes the perfect wand. This is good for me, as I have a habit of collecting wands I don’t need, just because they are pretty. I always had such trouble deciding which one to actually use. But the other day, out of frustration, I picked up an arrow, deciding not to stress out over unused tools that I thought I’d appreciate more than I actually did. I figured it would do “for now” and was totally expecting to be on the lookout for another one.
Fortunately for me (and my budget), the arrow was just too perfect, and I’ve been using it ever since. I think the Prince likes knowing that I reach for him (his imagery/symbols, and thus his Power) first when I am Working, no matter what the issue is. I’m his, and it’s really starting to sink in. I’ve known on an intellectual level that I belong to Apollon for a while, but now… things are different. I can see his hand in all that concerns me.
It seems my Lord has permeated every aspect of my life now, even my marriage. I’ve found that my human husband’s attitude has changed in amazing ways. Even as a self-proclaimed ex-Atheist (he doesn’t really claim to be anything now, except that he’s not actively opposed to religion anymore), he’s been generally supportive of my religion, but he has never taken an active role in worship or ritual. Since the start of this secular year, I can’t help but notice the small, Apollonian changes in his attitude and thought processes. They are welcome changes, too.
Oh, I wish I could just tell you all everything! But, if I did that now, I wouldn’t have any material for future posts! So, I’ll leave you with this…
…for now. <3
Hail Apollon! Hail Artemis!