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Gratitude Project 2017, Day 31 – Asmodeus

Tonight’s post will be the last for my participation in this year’s Gratitude Project.  I know it’s supposed to run until the Autumnal Equinox, but I  need to switch gears now to get ready for festivals coming at the end of this month and the beginning of the next.  Thirty-one days for thirty-one Gods, I think is fairly good, so I’m not going to fret about it.

Recently, within the last couple of years, I’ve begun reacquainting myself with the Demonic Pantheon.  It’s all still very new, but it feels almost like home.  I wasn’t expecting that.  But, you know, mostly I wasn’t expecting to fall in love again.

I didn’t even want to include Asmodeus in these Gratitude Project posts.  I wasn’t going to, which is why His comes on the last day of my participation.  He insisted.  It was His choice to reveal Himself as Someone special in my life.  I don’t know why it’s so important to Him, when previously He’s been so adamant on keeping us a secret.  But He wanted this, so I’m giving it to Him

We are still in the honeymoon phase, and everything is fresh and clear and perfect.  I’m not naïve enough to think it will always be this way, but right now, it’s more wonderful than anything I can think of.

Maybe we rushed into this a little too quickly, but we were drawn together by a force so powerful, it was like lifetimes of longing culminated in our decision to be together.  I don’t know how else to describe it.  And I’m glad. I’m glad it happened.  I’m glad I have the opportunity to love Someone else, and to share myself with Him, as I share myself with Others.

Love is like a flame.  Light one candle or a hundred, and the original flame still burns, undiminished.  Asmodeus burned into my life like a blazing star.  He followed all of the arbitrary rules set forth by my Father, and He wooed me to Zeus’ (and my) satisfaction.  What more could I ask for in a potential Partner, apart from His love and affection?

Asmodeus gives me those things without any working obligations.  I’m someone He loves for the sake of love, not for what I can do for Him, and that is the main difference between His love and Apollon’s love (though it’s not quite as simple as that).  I need both in my life, it’s true, but they are completely different dynamics.

My relationship with Asmodeus has opened me up to new possibilities, and new experiences.  It comes with its own quirks and stressed, but we’ve found it to be worth it.  I never thought I’d have another Beloved, but He won me over and proved me wrong.  For that, I am lovingly and exceedingly grateful.


So, There’s This Demon…

So, there’s this demon (who shall remain nameless), and I guess you could say we’re dating.  We’ve been seeing each other for a few weeks now, though we began our relationship many months ago, as more of a business arrangement. That’s not quite the correct analogy, but it’s the closest I could come to the exact truth without revealing too much.  Honestly, I hated His guts in the beginning, but I won’t go into all that here.

I did not want to be dating Anybody when it started.  I fought against His relentless pursuit with everything in me.  I lobbed insults at Him, and I ignored Him, and I actively worked against His interests.  If things had turned out differently and He had decided to ruin my life, I would not have been surprised, and He probably would have been justified.  But that isn’t what happened.  Instead, He manufactured a situation in which I could neither ignore Him, or forget about Him… and it wasn’t a nice situation.  It was, however, the catalyst for us beginning to understand one another.

I think a little understanding goes a long way, especially with people like us, whose reputations precede us.  He’s not known for His nice qualities, of which there are many, and I’m not known for my desire to get to know new People, of which there is virtually none.  I already have a Husband whom I am madly in love with, and I have a Consort who basically worships the ground I walk on (and whom I adore).  So, a Lover was not any kind of objective for me.  And although I don’t mind Demons, I tend to like to keep my distance.

This isn’t my first romp with a Demon.  I worked and played with several in my youth.  I know how intense and possessive They can be.  It was that possessiveness which led me to cease working and playing with Them in the first place.  And let me tell you, Those I knew before were not happy with that decision.  But They respected it, after no small amount of arguing.

That was a long time ago.  About fifteen or sixteen years ago, actually.  So, I know about Demons. I don’t need any well-meant warnings.  I’m sharing this with you all because I feel comfortable doing so, finally.  I am greatly enjoying my new Lover, and if His smile is any indication, He is enjoying me equally as much.

I don’t know how long this is going to last, though.  Having any kind of relationship with me comes with a set of deep political complexities that heretofore Nobody has been willing to navigate.  But He’s doing it, and that makes me think He’s in this for the long haul.  I don’t have the time or the patience for Anyone who isn’t… and frankly, neither does my Court.  Not only is this an investment for me, it is also for them.  We all have to get along, or it just won’t work.

So, I am cautiously optimistic that this really could turn out to be something good.  At this point, I hope so.  I’ve already invested a lot, and been through a lot, in regards to Him.  I guess He and I will both see in time.  And maybe I’ll have an update for my dear readers, if things go well.

Wish us luck!  :)