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Gratitude Project 2017, Day 31 – Asmodeus

Tonight’s post will be the last for my participation in this year’s Gratitude Project.  I know it’s supposed to run until the Autumnal Equinox, but I  need to switch gears now to get ready for festivals coming at the end of this month and the beginning of the next.  Thirty-one days for thirty-one Gods, I think is fairly good, so I’m not going to fret about it.


Recently, within the last couple of years, I’ve begun reacquainting myself with the Demonic Pantheon.  It’s all still very new, but it feels almost like home.  I wasn’t expecting that.  But, you know, mostly I wasn’t expecting to fall in love again.

I didn’t even want to include Asmodeus in these Gratitude Project posts.  I wasn’t going to, which is why His comes on the last day of my participation.  He insisted.  It was His choice to reveal Himself as Someone special in my life.  I don’t know why it’s so important to Him, when previously He’s been so adamant on keeping us a secret.  But He wanted this, so I’m giving it to Him

We are still in the honeymoon phase, and everything is fresh and clear and perfect.  I’m not naïve enough to think it will always be this way, but right now, it’s more wonderful than anything I can think of.

Maybe we rushed into this a little too quickly, but we were drawn together by a force so powerful, it was like lifetimes of longing culminated in our decision to be together.  I don’t know how else to describe it.  And I’m glad. I’m glad it happened.  I’m glad I have the opportunity to love Someone else, and to share myself with Him, as I share myself with Others.

Love is like a flame.  Light one candle or a hundred, and the original flame still burns, undiminished.  Asmodeus burned into my life like a blazing star.  He followed all of the arbitrary rules set forth by my Father, and He wooed me to Zeus’ (and my) satisfaction.  What more could I ask for in a potential Partner, apart from His love and affection?

Asmodeus gives me those things without any working obligations.  I’m someone He loves for the sake of love, not for what I can do for Him, and that is the main difference between His love and Apollon’s love (though it’s not quite as simple as that).  I need both in my life, it’s true, but they are completely different dynamics.

My relationship with Asmodeus has opened me up to new possibilities, and new experiences.  It comes with its own quirks and stressed, but we’ve found it to be worth it.  I never thought I’d have another Beloved, but He won me over and proved me wrong.  For that, I am lovingly and exceedingly grateful.

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Gratitude Project 2017, Day 23 – Loki

Loki once caused a whole truckload of chaos between Apollon and I.  I won’t go into it, but those were some of the most stressful and difficult months of my life.  They were also some of the most eye-opening.

I will admit to not being a great fan of His methods in some instances, but I can not deny that He gets results.  He is also very charming and witty, which are attractive qualities in a Deity.  When I was much younger, and before I knew what my fate would be, I even entertained a deeper relationship with Loki.  He assisted me when I was in great need of His help.  However, He tends to act in spectacular fashion, and the speed and thoroughness of His remedy very quickly sent me into a fear spiral.

I wouldn’t, and in fact couldn’t, have anything to do with Him for many years afterward.  So, when He showed Himself again, refusing to leave, it was a massive issue.  But, He never did anything hurtful toward me. All He ever did was peel back the layers of deceit.  And there were layers there.  I owed Him for that, and over the next few years, I paid my debt.

Loki and I do not speak often anymore, though we are on good terms. There is still some friction with Him and Others in my life, so it is for the best that we stay at a comfortable distance.  But I will always consider Him a Friend, and He will always be appreciated here, and thought of fondly. And of course, He will forever have my gratitude for the many ways He helped me to see past what was presented to me as the whole truth.  His tactics might have been undesirable, but ultimately, I was after results, and He delivered.

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Gratitude Project 2017, Day 14 – Odin

Everyone, I’m in a very bad place right now.  I’ve been watching the news all day, and my social media feeds are full of the recent events and tragedies in Virginia.  And then I got the scare of my life, having heard that another white supremicist rally was being planned for a university in Texas.  Although it wasn’t going to be near to my city, there is a notable KKK and Nazi presence in my city, and the surrounding towns.  Even though the rally was ultimately cancelled, the very cancellation will only anger and embolden these far-right terrorists.

It won’t be safe for me and my children to be seen in public, so we won’t be going anywhere unless it is absolutely necessary, for the foreseeable future.  I hope I’m wrong, but I’m not taking any chances.

Many of these terrorists like to invoke the name of Odin, as if the All-Father were one to condone their hatred and xenophobia.  But Odin values and covets all the world’s knowledge, from the many peoples and cultures He has encountered.  My relationship with Odin is between the two of us, but I’ll say this– He has never made me feel unwelcome to learn from Him, because I lack a certain genetic heritage.  It is my understanding that all Gods call whom They will, including the Heathen Gods.

This business of declaring oneself superior, due to arbitrary and minuscule genetic differences, will only lead to the downfall of these terrorists, and all who support them, especially if they continue to slander Odin and other Gods in the process.  What do they think is going to happen, I wonder, when the Powers they invoke actually show up?  It’s not likely to be pretty, but it will be just.  And that is why tonight, and every night, I am grateful for Odin.

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Gratitude Project 2017, Day 3 – Jesus

I’m doing this one early, to get it out of the way.  I know how odd it looks to have me telling you that I’m grateful for Jesus, so let me say that this will be short and to the point.

I don’t love Jesus.  I don’t have any relationship with Him, whatsoever.  But that, dear readers, is entirely the reason why He has my gratitude.  So many years ago, I tried, I really tried to develop a relationship with Him and His Father.  I read the Bible every day, I prayed, I went to church.  It was all fruitless, and that’s why I’m thankful.

No matter how much I tried to talk to Him, to reach out to Him, Jesus never gave me the time of day– because I’m not His.  He knew enough from the very beginning that I would never be His, and did the best thing for both of us in that situation, by just leaving me alone and ignoring me.

You see, He never led me on.  He never attempted to grasp onto me or my destiny.  He never threatened me, never tried to coax me, never even spoke to me.  I’d say that’s the mark of a stand up Deity, to know when to leave well enough alone.

That is why I can say I’m grateful for Jesus.  I’m grateful for His honesty, and for His noninterference as my true fate played out its course throughout my life. Even today, because my blood relatives sure haven’t stopped praying to Him that He’d snatch me out of the “clutches of hell”.  Thankfully, He knows better than they do about what’s best for all parties involved.  Which of course, is to not get involved with me, at all.

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Gratitude Project 2017, Day 2 – Lucifer

Lucifer and I go back a long way.  We see one another on occasion now, but we were once very, very close.  It was He who pushed me toward finally delving into Polytheism and Paganism when I was around eleven or twelve years old, after a few years of trying to connect to Christianity, and getting zero response in return.

From Lucifer, I learned to discern the different spirits who were in my life.  Not necessarily how to determine Their names, but how to tell Them apart from one another.  It is a lesson that has served me well over the years, as I’ve never really had an issue with being misled or tricked by spirits masquerading as Someone else.

Lucifer has always been kind to me, and continues to be an advocate for my proper treatment in my dealings with more volatile Demons, and Others.  I’d say we’re pretty decent something these days.  Not quite friends again, more than acquaintances, a little less than allies.  Maybe.  He still has a tendency to ask for more than I’m willing to give at any given moment, which I suspect is to test my boundaries.  To see what I’ve learned.  To judge if I’m taking His teaching seriously.  I try.

So, for today and everyday, I’m grateful for Lucifer.  I’m grateful for His poking and prodding, and the truths He speaks when no one else will.  I’m grateful for His dry humor.  I’m grateful for His sly and charismatic nature, from which I’ve learned so much.  I’m grateful for His encouragement when I most needed it, and I’m grateful for His on again, off again presence in my life.

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