Tonight’s post will be the last for my participation in this year’s Gratitude Project. I know it’s supposed to run until the Autumnal Equinox, but I need to switch gears now to get ready for festivals coming at the end of this month and the beginning of the next. Thirty-one days for thirty-one Gods, I think is fairly good, so I’m not going to fret about it.
Recently, within the last couple of years, I’ve begun reacquainting myself with the Demonic Pantheon. It’s all still very new, but it feels almost like home. I wasn’t expecting that. But, you know, mostly I wasn’t expecting to fall in love again.
I didn’t even want to include Asmodeus in these Gratitude Project posts. I wasn’t going to, which is why His comes on the last day of my participation. He insisted. It was His choice to reveal Himself as Someone special in my life. I don’t know why it’s so important to Him, when previously He’s been so adamant on keeping us a secret. But He wanted this, so I’m giving it to Him
We are still in the honeymoon phase, and everything is fresh and clear and perfect. I’m not naïve enough to think it will always be this way, but right now, it’s more wonderful than anything I can think of.
Maybe we rushed into this a little too quickly, but we were drawn together by a force so powerful, it was like lifetimes of longing culminated in our decision to be together. I don’t know how else to describe it. And I’m glad. I’m glad it happened. I’m glad I have the opportunity to love Someone else, and to share myself with Him, as I share myself with Others.
Love is like a flame. Light one candle or a hundred, and the original flame still burns, undiminished. Asmodeus burned into my life like a blazing star. He followed all of the arbitrary rules set forth by my Father, and He wooed me to Zeus’ (and my) satisfaction. What more could I ask for in a potential Partner, apart from His love and affection?
Asmodeus gives me those things without any working obligations. I’m someone He loves for the sake of love, not for what I can do for Him, and that is the main difference between His love and Apollon’s love (though it’s not quite as simple as that). I need both in my life, it’s true, but they are completely different dynamics.
My relationship with Asmodeus has opened me up to new possibilities, and new experiences. It comes with its own quirks and stressed, but we’ve found it to be worth it. I never thought I’d have another Beloved, but He won me over and proved me wrong. For that, I am lovingly and exceedingly grateful.